"It's funny, actually. I've never really believed in time. It seemed just an invention of mankind, to give ourselves the illusion we have control over daily events. A mechanical process since the clock was invented. I never wanted to believe in Time. Another false God. Yet, I've been needing it. How do you get something you don't believe in?"

~Maximiliaan Desnacht ~

Mood: Crazy / relaxed
Listening to: Syntax (choose a song)

Time has never been my thing to believe in. Everything just goes by. People cross your path and leave to walk with others. You walk with other people yourself. Words are said and become the past right away. Only the moment is there.
I don't believe in time. Yet I need it now and then. Once, someone went into the desert to think for fourty days. Coincidentally, there's almost 40 days between my last two stories. The reason for that is that I needed some 'time' to think things over. I had tons of ideas, still do, but could not find the motivation to actually start writing. Luckily, I sometimes get ideas for stories, that I just have to write down right away. It's an odd unexplainable feeling. Some stories just have to written the moment you get the idea. Stories like Celia, Drive, Shortest Straw.
This told me I'll probably never be a published writer. Not because of a lack of talent (I do believe in my talent), but because of my lack of motivation sometimes. I don't see myself working against the clock for some publisher.
"I can't finish the book before December, Sir. I don't believe in Time."
I doubt they'll accept that. But it's allright. My last stories have done exactly what I wanted them to do. They made people cry and think. They made people smile and think. They made people think. The world can only change if people think. About themselves mostly. Because I can't change the world without your help. If you won't change, so won't the world. That's still my motivation to write. But it's tough to keep up if you watch the news now and then. Nothing seems to change, while I know very well that I won't see any changes I might hopefully cause. That's demotivating sometimes.
I should stop watching the news. Then again, I can't try change things if I don't keep an eye on what's wrong.
Being a writer is a double edged blade.
But given time, I'll learn

So I would like to thank everyone who's read my stories and let them touch you. It means a lot to me.

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